okay, so i've been doing this thing on msn with my friend for several years, which is we rp stories. we've started a few and finished none. i should really just stop doing this. i always want to finish one of them, but she usually makes it conditional and i never want to meet conditions, or she just chucks it in the toilet! grr. then tonight she gets moody with me and says i remind her of her mother just because i asked, "why don't you feel like rping?" cause she said she didn't. And let me say, her mother is a complete and total psychotic, abusive, control freak, and i could have reached through the computer and pulled her long hair right off of her head for that. And the next thing i know she's saying i'm addicted to it. now i'm being stupid and offended by that! gyah! then she ditches me! i'm so irate! grr. sorry, it's dramatic, it's dumb, but gosh dang it all, i've had a yuck feeling all day long.
i got up this morning, went to work and wanted to snap at my mother for absolutely no reason whatsoever. then no one came into work today cause it snowed, i was late for the christmas party i was supposed to help my church put together, then I tried to do two good deeds tonight only to have them turned down flat and i was doing it at the behest of someone else and I was running way late when i offered. Then I get crap from her about how she's sulky and she flips at me, i point it out to her and she denies it. Grr. more anger than i can take. i feel like dumping all of these stories and never rping with her again. if she's going to throw it in my face and say i'm addicted then what's the point? i could say she's addicted to her precious computer and her mother's abuse, and her sob stories she always complains about but then always says "i don't wanna talk about it! then stop sulking and bringing me down. She so wants to talk about it, i can tell, she just won't with me! and if she doesn't want to talk to me, she should say so! gosh, what is so hard about saying to a friend when your sad or depressed, "you're not the person i feel i can be open about this with, but i would really just love your support," err something. argh! i'm so mad...
that and i think i'm on the verge of crying. I hate it. i think i'll go to bed. gosh, if she's going to scorn what i enjoy after i put a lot of hard work into it, what's the point of doing it with her, really?
long and short of it is, i don't like being accused of something bad when i enjoy it and there is no harm with enjoying it with a friend when they dragged you into it, (literally). i just like having stories and characters come to life and when i'm really into it i don't wanna stop. addicted a little, yes, but i really wanted to do it a lot since i'm going on my mission way soon, like less than three weeks. can you blame me?
i feel so pathetic for freaking out about this, but how dare she! what right has she to say something like that! If you don't wanna rp, then fine, but don't try to put me down to make you look like a freakin' martyr or saint or even feel that your just that much better than me!
now i'm blowing it way out of proportion. really, not a bad person, just a good girl with some nasty habits that i wish she would stop inflicting on me.
again, out of proportion! gaul! i'm such an idiot for this whole stupid thing, but i can't believe she did that to me. she didn't even ask me how i felt. she's was just whining! Here's some cheese, now take your whine some where else! insensitive jerk!